ERGONOMIC: Yet another term used forever by mama’s all around the world and especially by baby wering mama’s, ergonomic is the next new hip word used on the market (literally). But what exactly does this mean?
ERGONOMIC DEFINITION: An applied science concerned with with designing and arranging things people use so that the people and things interact most efficiently and safely —called also biotechnology, human engineering, human factors
ERGONOMICS IN BABY WEARING: If you apply the above definition to a baby carrier then that means the carrier should be consistent with the following points;
Fit the wearer comfortably and distribute baby’s weight evenly on his or her body.
Support baby’s, hips, spine and pelvis
They should be designed to seat the baby in the ‘M’ position – whereby the bottom is in the centre, lower than the height of the knees and their hips are spread open.
ISARA baby carrier is one of the leading baby carriers worldwide, as not only are they consistent with all the ergonomics when it comes to baby wearing, they are also approved by the International Hip Dysplasia institute, as well as this, they go above and beyond with their product(s). Only organic cotton, adjustability to suit all baby sizes, funky patterns and prints, and even more coming soon. If you are looking for a baby carrier, then it is a MUST to check them out @www.isara.ro
SEPTEMBER, apart from being one of my favourite months of the year, cue sweet potato pie and the wonderful weeks of autumnal summer, is also a month that many of us mothers can relate to. September signifies new beginnings, new starts and new things. New schools, new school years, new nurseries, new lunchboxes, new backpacks for the older children and for the younger children, new growth spurts, new adventures, new baby groups and new baby carriers.
Picking a baby carrier can be tricky if you’re not sure what you are looking for but as any baby wearing mama will tell you, it has to fit like the perfect shoe for both YOU and your sweet baby. As well as this, it must follow certain safety standards, be ergonomic, easily adjustable and easy to use whenever needed (which is nearly all the time when babies are going through a growth spurt). Luckily ISARA has got that covered for you, so you don’t need to look any further, however, if you’re new to the baby wearing lifestyle, then you may be wondering where to go next. If that’s you then keep reading below because I just did your homework for you (you can thank me later).
When we’re talking baby carriers, usually we are referring to a carrier which has buckles and fancy accessories attached in opposition to a sling or wrap (which ISARA also make – we’ll cover that in another post). As I previously said in my last VLOG <- clik here, ISARA have rigorously covered all the health and safety standards as well as ensuring our babies grow with the healthiest hips, therefore when choosing an ISARA, safety definitely need not come to mind once you cross over onto their website. So to begin with ALL CARRIERS ARE ERGONOMIC. So that’s the first point ticked off your check list. However, the next step to think about when buying is the sizing.
When picking the size of your carrier, ISARA have 2 sizes; Standard size and toddler size.
The standard size: Approx. 1 month old (4kg) – 20kg (does not need a newborn insert)
Toddler size: 8kg – 20kg
Keep in mind that if you have 2 children e.g. a newborn and a toddler then one standard size can be bought to fit the both of them, instead of the usual scenario of buying two separate baby carriers. The toddler size varies in length of vertical panelling so that larger children can have a more comfortable sit, however the standard is just as comfortable for them too, albeit the panelling being slightly shorter to fit smaller infants.
Next we’re talking MATERIAL – You’ll see over at the ISARA site, that they offer 3 options to choose from; Organic cotton (certified), classic cotton and woven wrap. Actually at this point in time, the site needs a little update as ISARA officially does not do any other cotton except for organic cotton anymore. The FOXY print before was constructed of classic cotton but now even that is organic cotton. awesome right? The other option is the carriers made of woven wrap. Each mama will have their own preference from their own research, so that should be easy in that sense. I believe the two different materials make a more slight difference depending on the baby in some cases. Eg. preemie’s, more sensitive babies, babies who like to mould into their mommy’s more may prefer the woven wrap material, as it is slightly softer, more breathable and more ‘breakable’. However, on another extreme if you were going straight in and buying for a 2 year old toddler then maybe you’d prefer, as I did, the organic cotton. It’s a littleee more rigid than woven wrap (in a good way), it holds the weight of a child very well, especially little bodies that love to wriggle, squirm and GROW, and the best part is the next and last point when choosing your carrier…
PATTERNS & PRINTS: This is the easiest and most fun part when it comes to choosing your ISARA baby carrier! ISARA have a wide variety of funky patterns, prints and colours. Some more vibrant, some more gentle, some with images and some without or if you’d like something more calm and simple, they also have unicolour carriers, it’s your choice!
So choose a carrier for you and your baby, even better choose a carrier WITH your baby and enjoy the many adventures and memories you’ll make together in your ISARA carrier! Also don’t forget if you’re an instagram user to use the hashtags #isarassc #isara #loveisara #isaraxlcg so the team over at ISARA can follow your adventures too!
As I’m always that mama blogger that just loves throwing those baby terms and phrases out there, if you follow me on instagram then you would have seen that I recently posted a picture of me naked with my baby girl. Thus inspiring me towards this blog post so I could talk (or type) about the pure intimacy, the closeness and the benefits of the now more commonly heard term: skin – to skin.
So what is Skin – to – Skin?
The definition of skin – to – skin (also known as kangaroo care, or kangaroo mother care (KMC) is holding a baby bare chested against the care givers bare chest from birth and as much as you can throughout the first few months of life.
More importantly: What are the main benefits of skin – to skin?
Keeps baby warmer, regulates breathing and heartbeat and keeps blood sugar levels higher.
Mothers who practise skin to skin find that they recognise their babies needs much more easily (in my case this is true, I’ve always known what my babies wanted purely from instinct from the strong maternal bond)
Babies who are kept close via a sling or kangaroo care are most likely to breastfeed exclusively and for longer (very true)
The physical contact of skin to skin will increase the mum’s supply of the happy hormone OXYTOCIN – happy mum, happy baby!
Skin to skin stabilizes a baby’s body temperature for them, no machines in the world can let you know if your baby is too hot or too cold, it we can only keep our baby in a median average temperature, however, when practising skin to skin a mothers breasts have the ability to recognize the baby’s needs temperature wise and adjust accordingly. A cooler fact? A twin mother’s breasts will adjust accordingly to each baby if one child is placed on each breast. Our bodies know what’s best for our babies!
Easy transition from the womb – studies have shown that babies who are held skin to skin are more physiologically and emotionally stable than babies who are placed in incubators. They also demonstrate better neurobehavioral outcomes such as less crying, lower pain response and better breastfeeding.
Studies of babies having to go through clinical procedures, such as preemies in the NICU, show that skin to skin definitely helps pain relief and that the duration of the pain is shortened by the close contact. Researchers are hoping that in the new future, findings from these studies will be taken into consideration and that a real breakthrough will be made in newborn care, especially for those who have to go through any types of painful procedures.
As you can see nothing is better for our newborn babies than a mama’s body. Just as through the whole pregnancy a mother’s body changes accordingly to adapt and grow a child within her, skin to skin proves that a mothers body also knows’ best during the fourth trimester of childcare and the transitioning from the womb to the outside world. As well as all the benefits, kangaroo care can be just fun in itself, so whilst your babies are tiny, skin to skin as much as you can and enjoy the bond that will be formed between you and your tiny loved one(s).
When we are welcomed to parenthood, we are also welcomed to a whole new world of phrases and terms to do with child raising, it’s almost like learning a new language, right? A term which has become increasingly popular and continues to do so amongst this generation is BABYWEARING. Although it is fairly obvious what this term means (wearing our babies) what is not immediately obvious are the scientific facts, the studies and the wonderful benefits of this practise during the early years of raising our little loved ones.
When it comes to babywearing so many questions arise; which carrier should I use? What’s the best make? What does the term ‘ergonomic’ even mean? When can I start wearing my baby? Is it safe? When should I babywear? Whilst ALL of these questions won’t be answered in this specific post, one question which I will be answering is;
WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF BABYWEARING?
OXYTOCIN LEVELS: When a mother gives birth, many people don’t realise the importance of keeping the newborn as close to the mother as possible and at nearly all times for at least a minimium of 6 weeks post-partum. Why? Is this the first time you’re hearing this? Most probably. So here’s the theory, a female body for 9 months forms and carries a child around, it creates this baby and all of a sudden after 9 months gives birth and many societies or cultures expect the mother and baby to stay away from each other in some form or the other from very early days, it is expected of many societies and cultures that the mother let varying guests hold the baby e.g. friends and families. Whilst of course we must accomodate to the fact that we are a civilised species and that we cannot hoard our babies and not let anyone touch them we must also for a second stop and think, what should our reactions be as mammals? We are mammals and we still sport many mammal instincts and characteristics in today’s day and time (of course). Not many realise that this constant distancing from the baby decreases our oxytocin levels. Why is that a problem and how does babywearing help? Lowered oxytocin levels means a ‘lowered level of happiness’. Thus increasing depression, which manifests into post-partum depression and in extreme cases post-partum psychosis, as well as pschosomatic illnesses in mothers. This is nothing new, think about all other mammal species, they do not let ANYONE or ANYTHING even touch their babies for the first 6-8 weeks. Babywearing helps increasing this scenario as oxytocin levels are increased through physical contact with the newborn. Thus having a postive domino effect on the relationship between mother and infant. Stronger maternal bond -> better understanding of baby and it’s needs as well as easier breastfeeding -> better care.
NEEDS ARE MET: Babies who are carried are generally calmer because all of their primal/survival needs are met (we are still mammals at the end of the day). The caregiver can be seen, heard, smelled, touched, tasted, felt, giving especially newborns the closest feeling to being in utero as possible. This makes the transition from in utero to out in the open world a much smoother, easier and less traumatising one for newborns. As well as this, the caregiver is able to provide feeding and the motion necessary for continuing development e.g. neural, gastrointestinal and respiratory health (hopefully the caregiver NOT being a smoker) and to establish balance (inner ear development).
‘HUMANIZATION’: Infants are ‘humanized’ earlier. Instead of spending their first days in anxiety, trying to figure out the giant world around the, and wondering/crying for their parents (generally specifically the mother). Infants feel safe, secure and content thus allowing them to develop socially and concentrate their energy and rapidly growing brain on other things such as studying facial expressions, studying body language and energies as well as learing languages.
ESTABLISHING INDEPENDENCE: One thing that many people DO NOT realise is that babies who are baby worn actually are more prone to establish their own independence then those who are not. Why? Because babies who are babyworn spend the lives in a secure state, rather than in a state of panic or anxiety due to separation (separation anxiety), This constant state of being content and secure manifests into a child with confidence in themselves rather than a child that is fearful, therefore the domino effect being that a child with confidence feels ready to establish his/her own independence from an earlier age and explore the world around them – continuing to grow and become an independant adult.
ATTACHMENT AND LOVE: This one a more obvious benefit of babywearing, carrying your baby around almost always ensures a growth of a strong bond inbetween the caregiver and baby. Being that close, and feeling the someone so dear to you, so close to you all the time can only result in a feeling of closeness, physically, emotionally, mentally and full of love.
These are the main benefits of baby wearing, covering some of the maybe not so obvious reasons as well as physiological reasons on why babywearing is such a healthy practise when it comes to raising our children. Although I covered these few points, yet in detail, there are many other reasons as to why we babywear and how we use babywearing to help us in every day life. Please don’t forget to subscribe to my youtube (Life of a Chocolate Girl ) to learn everything you need to about babywearing and lots more!
You've probably heard from your friends and family, or you're probably living this right now, it's something you're sure wouldn't happen and lo and behold it IS happening to you. You are just not seemingly able to lose the baby weight this second time round.
Unfortunately this is happening to me too. I seem to go in cycles of finally managing to lose a couple of pounds, only to pile it STRAIGHT BACK a couple of weeks later. I find that as I'm nearing the 4 month marker I've started wondering to myself if I EVER will get back to the way I was or if I'm alwayd going to remain 8lbs+ my pre-pregnancy weight. What makes it worse is that I keep comparing myself to my first pregnancy and how I lost the weight quicker that time round, finding that the more I compare myself, the more frustrated I was getting. Then at some point I snapped out if it and I really thought to myself. 'Hang on, if I lost it the first time round, then surely I'm doing something different or wrong which means I am not losing it the second time round.' And there was my answer. I was doing something different. NOT wrong, but different. Not only did this revelation ease my impatience, it also opened my eyes to the fact that maybe we should just stop comparing. If you aren't losing your baby weight the second, third and fourth time, then for sure you're doing something different too. Below I'm going to list the differences and why, they're actually real reasons.
1. It's your second (or more) birth:
2. We have less time and so we are eating more:
3. Getting to the gym is harder: A personal one for me, I find that with two children, getting to the gym is MUCH HARDER than it was getting there with my first. I mean after spending the whole day with my first, daddy would walk through the door after work, I'd put him on baby duty and run to the gym, not a feeling of guilt in my soul as this was my hour. However, having two babies it goes something like this. Stay with the baby the whole day, daddy walks through the door with first child (he's been to nursery all day). I obviously choose to spend my evenings with him doing something fun rather than running off to the gym as he's already been away for 8 hours and I'm not wasting my few precious hours that I could have with him, sweating it out in the gym. #sorrynotsorry
So literally, there you go, 3 legit reasons why I cannot get back to my pre-pregnancy weight as fast as I did after my first & also 3 reasons why it doesn't even matter anymore. Life is different, the circumstances are different. I'm a mama, just like you, doing it all alone. So let's not be too hard on ourselves and of course, try and make the healthier choices when we can, have patience and slowly but surely everything will fall into place.
A question I have been asked a lot during both my first and second pregnancies and during my time breastfeeding after, is, is it safe for me to take protein powder? Do I take/use any other supplements during these precious times. It is at this point where my answer is always, ‘yes and no.’ The lines surrounding this subject are very important especially as it concerns the health of a baby, therefore, if you are thinking of taking protein and or supplements, it is important to know the ‘rules’ as well as how, when and how much is safe to use. On this blog post I will outline the basic – yes and no’s to what can be taken and what is a no go, however, I will be also uploading a VLOG, so that I can expand and talk about in more detail what supplements I take, what stages I take them and most importantly why I take them.
Prenatal Supplements: YES.Prenatal supplements are extremely important to take during pregnancy, even if you have a healthy diet and lifestyle, a prenatal will help cover any bits missed when it comes to getting a full dose of essential vitamins and minerals that you will need to take care of yourself and your growing baby. On another note, whilt breastfeeding many women choose to just continue with their prenatal vitamin, however, experts suggest that it is actually important breastfeeding mother make the transition from a prenatal vitamin to a postnatal vitamin. This is due to the fact that whilst nursing, the nutritional needs of a mother and baby are different to those of a pregnant woman and that certain vitamins are needed in different quantities such as Vitamin D.
Iron Supplements:YES.Many woman after giving birth are temporarily anaemic due to the massive blood loss. Iron supplementation is very important for some new mothers, yet maybe not as important for others, this widely varies from mother to mother, their birth stories and their general diets. One group of mothers it is important for regardless are those who have had a c-section, as iron supplementation is extremely important for the post operation recovery.
Probiotics: YES. During pregnancy the hormone oestrogen slows down everything that is happening within our digestive tracts, leading many mothers to continue to suffer even after birth constipation, wind, stomach cramps etc. Probiotics help to maintain a healthy digestive tract over the long run and results can be seen even from the first few days of taking them. Depending on the specific probiotic, most are safe for use during breastfeeding and even have been proven to help with maintaining a healthy digestive tract for baby too. No more colic! Although when buying an over the counter probiotic make sure to verify that it is indeed BREASTFEEDING SAFE before buying.
Protein Powder: YES and NO. When it comes to protein powder it can be a red flag on whether you take it or not. Here it is important to understand how protein powder functions to help us and know how the other added artifical substances can harm/cause damage to our growing babies. There are also so many other factors that vary depending on age of baby, stage of pregnancy and the mother herself. I will expand more in detail on my upcoming VLOG on what type of proteins are okay and what types are a NO – GO.
BCAA’s: NO. The term BCAA is short for ‘branched chain amino acids’. In short they are just basic protein building blocks for our body, so you may wonder, why not for a growing foetus? In general high levels of BCAA in children under 12 years of age have shown to cause mental retardation and brain damage, an unborn foetus or nursing child can inadvertently consume extra levels of BCAA through any kind of nutrition passed from the mother to the child during the pregnancy or nursing stages. This is why it has become a general rule for medical professionals to recommend that women who are pregnant or nursing not take any kind of BCAA supplement. It’s better to play it safe than sorry.
Fat Burning Supplements: NO. Fat burning supplements usually are just made using a stimulant or a combination of stimulants in order to increase our metabollic rate, thus causing us to burn fat easier/quicker. If you have been pregnant or nursing before, you will know even every day stimulants such as caffeine has to be restricted during these sensitive periods of time. Why? Everything we consume, our child does too and if the effect of a stimulant can have such an impact on our body then inadvertantly it would be like giving crack cocaine to your child. So that is a definite no.
L – Carnitine: YES. Whilst there is not enough research of L-carnitine use during pregnancy, it is better to be on the safe side and to not use it, however, during breastfeeding reseach has shown that it can help a mother bring her energy levels up during this time where a lot of energy consumption goes into making milk. Moreover research has also shown that small amounts of L-carnitine have had no side effects in nursing babies, yet large amounts of L-carnitine use has still not been researched. It can therefore be concluded that l-carnitine in moderation and at smaller doses is safe to take during breastfeeding.
Some of us in this world can give birth and within the shortest space of time can go back to looking like they never really just spent 9 months housing a tiny human being rent free. However, majority of mothers don’t seem to escape the reminders so easily and are left with marks that may make us feel as though we are the only ones who have them, when in reality, a majority of our fellow mothers feel the same way and have them too. I definitely was hit hard with the ‘mum tum’ the second time round and so I decided to write and share my 10 truths in case you share them too.
Your muscles post- partum have adapted to the pregnancy shape, so that you always look like you have a 4 month pregnancy bump, even if you’ve lost a ton of weight.
Stretch marks – they’re there and even though somehow if you didn’t notice them whilst you were pregnant, they’re still there.
Extra Skin – literally just ‘hanging there’.
Even if you have a flat tummy in the morning, after you eat you tend to look bloated and rounded out. This is due to the muscles not being as strong as they were pre-pregnancy.
Your stomach is darker than the rest of your body – if you are Caucasian or any other light skinned origin then this isn’t such a major issue and for most, not even noticeable. On the other hand, if you’re dark skinned like me, or even darker than it makes a massive difference from our darker pigment all collected together in our excess skin.
You’re still sporting you’re linea neagra, this almost always fades away however straight after birth it still sticks around for a bit.
Depending on how big your bump grew or what your belly button was like before, chances are you belly button is ‘bigger’ an ‘outie’ now or there is some considerate change. Most people generally have their belly buttons go back to normal after a while, however few people don’t. (Mine definitely changed after my first pregnancy and was bigger)
If you’ve had a c-section, you may have an overhang, a dip (not everyone has these) but also a scar. Within a year most c-section scars are pencil thin, however some may end up thicker.
Hairy Belly – some ladies grow hair on their bey during pregnancy, it can’t really be seen during the time of pregnancy however after baby is out and all the skin collects, you find that you have a hairy, floppy belly. Attractive right? But not to worry, it will fall out and not grow back again, or if you can’t wait until then, then you can shave it off like I did. (Shaved once and it never grew back).
Although sometimes you find yourself wishing you had your old abs back, nearly all the time all these changes fade away and in the end even if you don’t look exactly the same as you did pre-pregnancy you won’t really mind that you went through all these changes because in the end, it was all so worth it.
So I’m here again after what seems like an eternity, apologetic and ready to ‘catch-up’ as usual. Or more likely fill you in on all the crazy happening in my life. I would like to pretend I’m sipping a cup of coffee whilst my newborn is napping away and I’ve found an hour from my sweet new mommy #2 life to write this blog post. However, the truth is actually on my way to a check up with my doctor, sitting in the back of the car, making myself extremely nauseous whilst I write this. Anyone else get that? And truth is I’m cranky because I’ve said to myself a thousand times I should write on my blog, but by the time night comes I’m crashed out in bed with my make-up on whilst putting Ayan to sleep. Motherhood. So therefore I can’t wait any longer so I’ll just write in the car and throughout the rest of the day whenever I’m catching 5 minutes to do so. That’s paragraph one done. I’ve arrived, so I’ll save this draft and be back later…
Back again, finally home, everything is great! Scar is looking good. Aryana is currently burping/vomiting on me whilst I write this, however, before I leave in half an hour to take her for her first check up I would like to finish this post. So let’s see shall we.
As I was saying, well actually I don’t remember what I was saying, but what I do want to say is that, blogging is something I so love to do, I love to write, write about my life. I love the questions I receive, the insight I give people into my personal life. However, at some point blogging turned into a ‘competition’ for me, I kept following other bloggers, especially ‘mom bloggers’ to catch what ideas they had, to see how they were doing climbing the social ladder. And at some point I noticed a trend. These mothers all seem to have the ‘perfect lives’ with perfect babies that sleep through the night, perfect make-up, perfect hair and perfect white backgrounds for their Insta pics and their vlogs. And whilst all that may be true, it is not achievable – not without a whole lot of stress anyways. I found that at some point I got caught up in some kind of competition, to portray the ‘perfect Insta life too’. Stressing on taking the perfect Instagram picture, stressing on having my make up perfect for a vlog, stressing on writing the perfect blog posts. Making everything seem like my motherhood was easy, smooth and life was bliss. Well it’s not true. My life is bliss, but for all that it is and all that it isn’t. For all that I manage to do and all that I don’t.
If you’re a mother to be, or just another momma following a mommy blogger than please don’t put the expectations on yourself that they seem to lay out for you. I can assure you half these ‘perfect mommies’ have parents, in laws, nannies, cleaners to help them do what they do. Hence the extra time to do all these crafty, Pinterest things that get us feeling like we aren’t doing enough. Admittedly as a mother I have extremely high expectations of myself 99% of the time so I end up joining the Pinterest mommy club, however, it’s not always smooth sailing and there is 1% of the time when I’m a binge eating, tired, stressy mom who feeds my kids chicken nuggets for lunch AND dinner. And I’m going to blog about it.
Yep that’s right, I want to give a real insight into my REAL life. Not my wannabe Insta mom life that anyways I never can keep up with. I want to show what it’s REALLY like to be a momma with a toddler and a newborn, to be young, full of passions, tired as hell, mostly achieving what I set out to do but everyday for at least a few moments as my husband will tell you… a hot mess. I want to blog the real me. Blog what’s REALLY written in my diary for the day, write about the tantrum Ayan had and although I was a zen mother on the outside I’m crying on the inside. So as of today I’m blogging my life to you, my real life, with all the social media around even being a mother has become a competition and I’m tired of it, so join me on my journey, even if I don’t have fancy Insta pics or if I don’t look like a model everyday or if I write a cranky post, grab a coffee (only one if you’re breastfeeding or pregnant). Because motherhood is fun, it is great, it’s full of ups, but there is also sad times, frustrating times and times of tears. Because this is REAL motherhood, this is… motherhood unplugged.
April 1st 2017, the day our lives changed yet again & a day which we will truly never forget…
Lately the weather hadn’t been so amazing, however, that specific Saturday morning it was sunny, bright and warm outside. I picked up my phone, checked my diary to see what I had planned for that day. Yep, of course as always my diary was full for Saturday of little things that I had to finish/buy before baby made it’s appearance as there were only a few weeks left. As the boys woke up and me and Mihai were talking about what we had to do today, I had a true F*#K THAT moment and I decided to clear the schedule until Monday and we instead had decided that for the whole weekend we were just going to spend time as a family, maybe fulfill last minute desires (like eating as many doughnuts as I want in one sitting) and nothing else but fun. And so, our ‘fun family weekend’ began.
The house was spotless and disinfected from top to bottom from my weeks of nesting + my OCD, if you know us, you’ll know we are somewhat ‘clean freaks’ – that is what you call people like us right? So there was nothing to do a 9.30am except to get dressed and head to starbucks.
10.00am: Arrive at starbucks, get a Soy Macchiato, a normal macchiato, Ayan’s usual doughnut with pink marshmallows and a bottle of overpriced water…I will never understand WHY my son is obsessed with the bottles of water specifically from Starbucks when I can buy him the EXACT SAME water from any other store, but anyways… Sip our coffees, take some selfies, or atleast I tried to with Ayan, it’s quite tough with a toddler, then we decided to do some shopping. Post shopping I decided I needed a rest and that the rest would be in the car on the way to the NEXT shopping centre (Vivo City).
12.00pm: Arrive at Vivo City, I decide that I want to eat KFC + a doughnut from the Donuterie, promising myself of course that from tomorrow until I give birth I’ll eat healthier so that I have the energy to go through the birth process. Feeling super massive now, we finish off some shopping and head home.
13.30pm: Arrive home, Ayan is taking a nap and I tell Mihai that we simply MUST watch a movie together with some more junk of course, so of course we put a movie on. Halfway through the movie I’m feeling a little uneasy and out of breath but I just assume it’s because the baby is squishing my lungs or something like that. I start complaining and so we decide to turn the movie off and just chill. So yep, chillin’ together, everything is good, then my husband decides he wants to cook steak and sweet potato mash randomly on a Saturday, so as he makes second lunch? Pre-dinner? Not sure what you’d call it, we eat so much, I’m playing with Ayan and eating more things I can find in the kitchen. We eat, it is D E L I C I O U S, I’m still promising that I won’t eat this much from tomorrow but until then I think we should go to the central park, spend some time with Cliffy as it;s beautiful outside, oh and we should get an ice cream too.
17.00pm: Head off to the park, before that we fooled around at the back of the block, posting on snapchat, instagram stories, and just taking silly pictures, little did I know that it would be the last pictures I’d ever have of my little bump. On arrival at the park we walk the whole way through and back, play with Ayan, look for trolls under bridges and for some weird reason just followed Ayan around who had befriended another slightly older toddler who didn’t seem to have any parents with him, yet seemed to enjoy making my son laugh by repeatedly throwing his scooter in the water. Such a strange little moment, boys can be so strange sometimes. Still haven’t got my ice cream, although the boys had theirs, so we decide to head back to where the ice creams are, I carry Ayan most of the way there and just before we get to the ice cream we decide that we must stop at the kids section so that Ayan can go on the slide.
Incoming message on my phone
My doctor had messaged me earlier on asking me how I felt to which I told her that I’d had some contractions, assuming they were Braxton hicks, I took some Magnesium B6 and they calmed down, apart from that I felt as awesome as an 8 month pregnant woman can feel and that everything is good. According to my Doctor she didn’t trust me and she had weird gut feelings so she expected me to be at the hospital in 30 minutes. What?! Sounds a bit worrying, but my doctor is amazing and surely just wants to double and triple check everything is okay, I mean it is a Saturday evening and she could be doing something else. So I tell Mihai that we must leave the park immediately, drop Ayan at his mother’s and make our way to the clinic. Probably the funniest moment of the whole day, Mihai’s face and his denial, at some point I felt that I’d have to drag him out that park he was THAT frightened and in denial and soooo didn’t want me to give birth. Anyways skipping Mihai’s panic attack we head towards the hospital ->
19.00pm: From this point onwards everything seems to be a retrospective blur. Enter clinic. Climb up onto the table, an assistant says to me how do I not feel that I am in labour as she can see my tightenings through my dress. Excuse me? I still feel nothing. I look over to Mihai who looks like he will pass out at any moment and don’t say anything, except for deny any pain of course. Doctor does the scan, I’m definitely having contractions and they are about 6 minutes apart. Ok? The scan shows that I have barely any water left, and that baby has almost no water at it’s head…time for a slight panic. Doctor cannot believe that my waters have broken and I never called her. That is NO THANKS TO MIHAI. So the day before I had some discharge that was so fluid and water like I wasn’t sure if I had peed myself but Mihai kept saying that it was just end of pregnancy discharge, now I have nooo idea why I listened to him. Of course baby is not in position and is transverse, I have no water left. Time for the internal check. Oh I’m 2 and a half centimetres dilated already. Well this baby is coming and it’s coming soon. Mihai gets sent home by my doctor to collect my stuff, we have somehow been communicating through telepathy all this time as if I recall correctly we never really exchanged a word with each other but for sure we knew what each other were thinking, we just kept looking at each other, it all seemed quite the shock. I in the meantime get whisked upstairs, stripped naked quicker than I can blink, hospital gown on and told to lie down. Yet another assistant cannot understand why I’m not feeling my contractions, now that I’m lying down and looking at them I can almost literally see them and I can definitely feel them, oh wait, now I feel it, they may be just slightly painful.
… no idea what time it was: I’ve been moved to the operation room, I’m starting to panic as Mihai is not here yet although my Doctor keeps reassuring me that she won’t start without him being there. Oh great, he’s here now and all of a sudden in all my shock I notice that not only is my husband and my doctor there, but there are also ALL the ladies from the previous shift (guess I caught them through shift change over time) and ALL the ladies from the night shift. Plus the assisting surgeon, the anaesthesist, the head anaesthesist nurse, the neonatalog. That is one thing that I will for sure remember, I have NEVER literally, in my life, seen that many people in an operating room. My spinal gets put in blah blah then, I for some reason start to panic, I’m sweating profusely, Mihai is trying to give me a thumbs up from the door for some reason? Okay, that’s my cue to pass out, next thing I know the anaesthesist is telling someone to get Mihai here, My doctor is talking to God knows who, Mihai is there holding my hand, the theatre lights turn on and I feel like a deer in the headlights. I’m lying on my back with someone holding my head down because I’m panicking, the sweetest anaesthesist guy who I’ve managed to fall in love with throughout all this chaos is soaking me in water and all I can think about is how he is ruining my lash extensions, plus the fact he can see my boobs, plus the fact a whole other bunch of people can see my vagigi, plus the fact that I am ABOUT TO THROW UP, trying to tell myself to hold it in. Focus on my dear husband’s hand stroking my hand, try telling my husband I love him the most in the world. Oh wait, nope I’m throwing up all over my anaesthesist. Poor guy. It only happens two more times. They still haven’t reached my uterus yet, why? I don’t think I even want to know, the doctor’s are deep in concentration, and for a still second I admire the way in which they are working together, I have no idea what they are doing but it seems important, they are in silence and for a slight moment all the chaos around me and my panicked thoughts blur out, For a moment it is me, the thud of my heartbeat, the theatre lights and the two doctors working alongside each other in an understood silence. My heartbeat is getting louder and louder in my ears, Mihai is calming me down, I can’t really understand what’s taking so long, but I’ll find out after the surgery.
20.45pm: All of a sudden I feel the interior incision, I’m asking Mihai if he can see the baby yet. Then I hear it, the doctor saying how SHE has the longest eyelashes, someone else said she is the most beautiful baby and then came her sweet, sweet cry. I don’t know what I’m feeling, I’m crying, I’m still in shock yet I am the happiest woman alive. I have so much love for my husband, my newborn child and everyone around me. I’m reliving the ecstasy I felt the first time when I gave birth to the love of my life, little baby Ayan and now I am feeling it again. They’ve taken her to another room to dress her and check her vitals, whilst my doctor is continuing with the operation. She says something to me but I can’t hear her, so many people are saying so many things but all I can hear is the beautiful sound of my baby’s cry next door.
I can’t wait to hold her as soon as I’m out the theatre.
With the funniest memories, the sweetest moment and the most wonderful Doctor’s and medical team. This is how my baby girl – Aryana Lorena Moldovan – was born, Bought into this world on April 1st 2017 @ Clinica Hipocrates, Cluj-Napoca.